Friday, May 8, 2015
reaching the limit
Have you ever come to the point in a relationship that you don't know how much more you can take? I am reaching that point with my man and yes I have kids with him and honestly that is the only thing keeping me here I don't want to take the kids away from him but should he really be out with his friends almost every night? Is that me being unreasonable even unfair? I feel big changes coming in my life and everyone knows how much I love change (she says sarcastically). I am afraid that I wouldn't be able to give the kids everything they need if I go out on my own, afraid that if I go I will land flat on my face. I don't want to move in with my mother but that's the only place I would be able to go to start out. And I don't want to never see my kids because I have to work all the time to make ends meet. So I could stay for another year or so until my youngest starts preschool or I leave after little man gets out of school at the end of the month. Or I just live like this feeling like the town pariah because everyone knows he prefers to be down at the bar than at home with me and the kids. I feel like the next few days are really going to tell me what I should do. Meanwhile I have been applying for jobs in the area near my moms house and looking into getting a continuing education certificate in business management. Its a lot to take in all at once I just don't know what to do.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Trees for Earth Day
It's been a while, so hey y'all!
While looking for something to do for Earth Day, I found out that the Arbor Day Foundation gives you 10 tiny trees if you get a $10 membership. I'm going to order the flowering tree mix today. It's usually better to try planting trees in the fall, but I figure what the heck...I'll give it a go and see if I can get them established. If even one in ten makes it, it's a good deal. We've lost about 10 aspens in the last few years to disease, and our poor little linden isn't doing too great, so this will help to repopulate the yard.
I'm doing well and writing like mad to keep up with my planned publishing schedule. Mr. Borealis built me a rabbit-proof garden for Valentine's Day, and I went out with with T and started planting on the 15th. I did take pictures, but unfortunately don't have them on hand to post right now, so I'll have to get them on here later. :P
Writing, gardening, and cooking constitutes a large part of my hobbies lately.
After all of the excitement in January, T is going in for what I hope will be his last test tomorrow to see if his kidneys are functioning as they should be. I'm sure they are, but the whole situation has just created a mess with his doctors. I get that they want to be careful (and they really do have a reason for concern), but we took him in last week for an unrelated issue and the doctor had ordered antibiotics for a UTI before his urine was even tested. That's where we are now--the issue at hand was ignored because he's had one UTI, so therefore his kidneys MUST be bad and every issue MUST be a UTI. His urine came back and no UTI--he just had a virus. I just want his test tomorrow to come back definitive one way or the other so doctors can stop assuming what's wrong and actually look at the symptoms he has. Wish us luck.
Alula
While looking for something to do for Earth Day, I found out that the Arbor Day Foundation gives you 10 tiny trees if you get a $10 membership. I'm going to order the flowering tree mix today. It's usually better to try planting trees in the fall, but I figure what the heck...I'll give it a go and see if I can get them established. If even one in ten makes it, it's a good deal. We've lost about 10 aspens in the last few years to disease, and our poor little linden isn't doing too great, so this will help to repopulate the yard.
I'm doing well and writing like mad to keep up with my planned publishing schedule. Mr. Borealis built me a rabbit-proof garden for Valentine's Day, and I went out with with T and started planting on the 15th. I did take pictures, but unfortunately don't have them on hand to post right now, so I'll have to get them on here later. :P
Writing, gardening, and cooking constitutes a large part of my hobbies lately.
After all of the excitement in January, T is going in for what I hope will be his last test tomorrow to see if his kidneys are functioning as they should be. I'm sure they are, but the whole situation has just created a mess with his doctors. I get that they want to be careful (and they really do have a reason for concern), but we took him in last week for an unrelated issue and the doctor had ordered antibiotics for a UTI before his urine was even tested. That's where we are now--the issue at hand was ignored because he's had one UTI, so therefore his kidneys MUST be bad and every issue MUST be a UTI. His urine came back and no UTI--he just had a virus. I just want his test tomorrow to come back definitive one way or the other so doctors can stop assuming what's wrong and actually look at the symptoms he has. Wish us luck.
Alula
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Happy New Year!!!
Yes a month late but it is the New Year, so happy new year.
FYI the kids and I will be at my mom's house starting the 21st-26th. Little mans spring break. Hope we can get together!
FYI the kids and I will be at my mom's house starting the 21st-26th. Little mans spring break. Hope we can get together!
Friday, September 12, 2014
Baby #2... it's True!
I've waited quite a while to post about this pregnancy. But, I am in fact pregnant with my second child, and it is due on March 5th, 2015. Hubby and I are incredibly excited, as well as big brother!
For those of you who may not know, I had a miscarriage late last year. After that experience I was not overly excited to let everyone know about this pregnancy right away. So I've waited.
As with my first pregnancy, I have a cervical cerclage. This cerclage is SO different from my first one though. This one was a preventative procedure, based on my strange history, whereas the first one was emergent at just over 21 weeks. Having it done as a preventative measure means I can do basically everything a normal pregnant woman can do. My doctor's only restriction was, "Don't do anything stupid. You know your limits." I am so thrilled, this is not what I expected! Apparently when you have it done in an emergency means you get all your rights and privileges as a human stripped: minimal walking, no exercise, no sex, constant checks and micromanagement from the doctors. Freedom is such a relief. This cerclage I got to use general anesthesia, last time I was awake and had a spinal. My recovery was also much quicker this time, only two days.
I'm spending every day of this pregnancy grateful that I am pregnant (even though it makes me miserable sometimes). I say, "Thank you God for this opportunity!"
~Munchkin
For those of you who may not know, I had a miscarriage late last year. After that experience I was not overly excited to let everyone know about this pregnancy right away. So I've waited.
As with my first pregnancy, I have a cervical cerclage. This cerclage is SO different from my first one though. This one was a preventative procedure, based on my strange history, whereas the first one was emergent at just over 21 weeks. Having it done as a preventative measure means I can do basically everything a normal pregnant woman can do. My doctor's only restriction was, "Don't do anything stupid. You know your limits." I am so thrilled, this is not what I expected! Apparently when you have it done in an emergency means you get all your rights and privileges as a human stripped: minimal walking, no exercise, no sex, constant checks and micromanagement from the doctors. Freedom is such a relief. This cerclage I got to use general anesthesia, last time I was awake and had a spinal. My recovery was also much quicker this time, only two days.
I'm spending every day of this pregnancy grateful that I am pregnant (even though it makes me miserable sometimes). I say, "Thank you God for this opportunity!"
~Munchkin
Friday, August 29, 2014
Sad News
Hey Ladies,
My Grandmother on my Fathers side, ( not the one you have met) passed away this morning.She has been sick for a very long time, needing dialysis 3 times a week. She had a heart attack this morning and after they revived her 3 or 4 times, my Grandfather decided she wanted to go. Both of her sons have been waiting for her a long time. I realized today how happy she must be getting to hold them in her arms again, I hope she has told my Father what a beautiful Granddaughter he has, and about his Grandson on the way.
My grandparents were married at 18, after a very short courtship. They have been married for over fifty years, and very obviously loved each other deeply. I think it will be very hard for him to be without her. They had the marriage everyone dreams of the day they get married. Of her 4 children she has 2 surviving daughters, 5 grandchildren, and 5 great grandchildten.
Pepper is going to be named after her favorite Uncle, I did not get a chance to talk to her about it, but I think she would have been thrilled. She has been too sick to talk on the phone for the last couple of months. I'm sorry for Pepper she will not be able to tell him about his namesake directly.
She was a sweet little German woman who showed me to love my family despite their shortcomings. She always believed her children and grandchildren were special because of the family and history they came from. I'm proud to be her Granddaughter.
My Grandmother on my Fathers side, ( not the one you have met) passed away this morning.She has been sick for a very long time, needing dialysis 3 times a week. She had a heart attack this morning and after they revived her 3 or 4 times, my Grandfather decided she wanted to go. Both of her sons have been waiting for her a long time. I realized today how happy she must be getting to hold them in her arms again, I hope she has told my Father what a beautiful Granddaughter he has, and about his Grandson on the way.
My grandparents were married at 18, after a very short courtship. They have been married for over fifty years, and very obviously loved each other deeply. I think it will be very hard for him to be without her. They had the marriage everyone dreams of the day they get married. Of her 4 children she has 2 surviving daughters, 5 grandchildren, and 5 great grandchildten.
Pepper is going to be named after her favorite Uncle, I did not get a chance to talk to her about it, but I think she would have been thrilled. She has been too sick to talk on the phone for the last couple of months. I'm sorry for Pepper she will not be able to tell him about his namesake directly.
She was a sweet little German woman who showed me to love my family despite their shortcomings. She always believed her children and grandchildren were special because of the family and history they came from. I'm proud to be her Granddaughter.
Friday, July 18, 2014
Monday, July 7, 2014
The Stay at Home Life
Ladies, I made a difficult decision to leave my job a few weeks ago. I've nearly finished another novel, and I'm pretty close to finishing edits on my next publication. Mr. B made me a vegetable garden in the back, and I've got tomatoes, pumpkins, peas, beans, onions, and Anaheim peppers planted. I'm using the bricks from our old fireplace to create "mini plots" in my squares, and we take Baby out in his stroller with us while we garden.
The vegetable garden on June 20th:
And (17 days later) the vegetable garden today, July 7th:
So the pumpkins have, erm, taken over. I'm so used to gardening out of planters on a porch that I underestimated how much space they would need, and I was using old seeds, so I figured some of them might not grow, and then I thought some would die because this part of the lawn is full sun and it gets HOT.
Well, all but 1 seed germinated and survived, and the plants are now trying to bust out of the rabbit fence. Those leaves measure a littler larger than a foot in diameter.
I forgot that this yard never does anything small! I may have some pumpkins to share later this year, assuming no early frosts and that the crowding doesn't diminish output too drastically.
Alula
The vegetable garden on June 20th:
And (17 days later) the vegetable garden today, July 7th:
Well, all but 1 seed germinated and survived, and the plants are now trying to bust out of the rabbit fence. Those leaves measure a littler larger than a foot in diameter.
I forgot that this yard never does anything small! I may have some pumpkins to share later this year, assuming no early frosts and that the crowding doesn't diminish output too drastically.
Alula
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